Shadows to Strength: Healing After Sexual Assault in Adulthood
By Cynthia Smith — Founder of The Novel Advocate
www.thenoveladvocate.com

Disclaimer

This guide is intended for informational and supportive purposes only.
It is not a substitute for medical advice, mental health care, diagnosis, or treatment by a licensed professional.
If you are in crisis or need medical assistance, please seek immediate help from a qualified provider.
The Novel Advocate Inc. 2025

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What to Do in the First Hours or Days

You do not have to do everything at once.
Right now, your only job is to breathe and survive this moment.

There is no perfect response to sexual assault. You may feel shock, anger, shame, confusion, or even numbness. All of it is valid. Your brain is trying to protect you. Let it move at its own pace.

When you’re ready, here are a few things you can do:

🪷 Ensure Your Physical Safety

– Go somewhere safe, even if it’s not your home.

– Call someone you trust — you don’t have to do this alone.

– If you are still in danger, call 911 or emergency services.

🪷 Seek Medical Attention (if you feel ready)

– Even if you don’t want to report, you can still get medical care.

– An emergency room or sexual assault crisis center can check for injuries, STIs, and pregnancy.

– You may choose to have a forensic exam (rape kit) — this preserves evidence in case you decide to report later.

🪷 You Do Not Have to Report Right Away

– You have time to make decisions.

– Preserving evidence does not require you to press charges immediately.

– It’s okay to pause, process, and come back to this when you’re ready.

🪷 Be Gentle With Your Mind

– You may blame yourself. That’s normal — and untrue.

– Whether you froze, fought, gave in, or went quiet — it was survival.

– There is no right way to respond to assault. There is only survival.

🪷 What You Can Say to Yourself Instead of Self-Blame

– “What happened to me was not my fault.”

– “I did what I had to do to survive.”

– “My pain is real — and I am allowed to feel it.”

– “I am worthy of care, even if I don’t know what I need yet.”

🪷 You Are Not Alone

– You are not the only one who has ever felt this lost.

– There are people who will believe you, support you, and walk beside you.

– The next section will help you understand what medical care can look like — and what your options are.

🪷 Medical Care & Preserving Evidence

You deserve care. You are allowed to take your time.

🩺 Why Medical Care Matters

After a sexual assault, seeking medical care is about protecting your health and beginning the process of healing — both physically and emotionally.
You do not have to report the assault in order to receive care.

Medical support may include:

• Checking for physical injuries
• Testing and treatment for sexually transmitted infections (STIs)
• Emergency contraception
• Documentation of any physical trauma
• A forensic exam (rape kit), if you choose

You are in control. Every step is optional. You can pause or say no at any time.

🧬 What Happens During a Forensic Exam (Rape Kit)

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The exam is performed by a trained medical provider, often a SANE (Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner). It typically lasts 2.5–5 hours. It may include:

1. Informed Consent
   You’ll be asked for written permission. You can decline any part of the exam.
2. Medical History & Assault Details
   Only what you’re comfortable sharing — this helps guide the exam and treatment.
3. Head-to-Toe Physical Exam
   Any visible injuries are noted or photographed (with consent).
4. Evidence Collection
   • Swabs (oral, genital, anal, skin)
   • Fingernail scrapings
   • Clothing or personal items
   • Hair samples or foreign material
5. Preventive Care
   • STI and pregnancy prevention options
   • Referrals for follow-up and counseling
6. Documentation & Chain of Custody
   Your kit is labeled and stored in case you choose to report.

🗂️ If You’re Not Ready to Report

You can request a “Jane Doe” or anonymous kit. This means:

• Your name is not attached
• The kit is stored for a period of time (varies by state)
• You can choose to report later if you decide to

🧭 When to Go

• Ideally within 72 hours, but some evidence can be collected up to 5 days later
• Try not to shower, brush your teeth, change clothes, or eat beforehand — but still go even if you already have
• If you bring clothes, place them in a paper bag, not plastic

💰 Is It Free?

Yes — under the Violence Against Women Act (VAWA), the forensic portion of the exam must be provided at no cost to you, even if you choose not to report to police.
However, hospital fees or medications might still be billed separately. Ask your provider or advocate about state victim compensation funds that may help cover those costs.

❓Questions to Ask Before or During the Exam:

• Am I allowed to have someone I trust with me during the exam?
• What parts of the exam are optional?
• Can you explain each step before it happens?
• Will this go on my insurance? Can I choose not to use insurance?
• How long will the evidence be stored?
• What if I change my mind about reporting later?

🧡 Remember:

You have survived something no one ever should.
This exam is not about reliving your trauma — it’s about reclaiming your rights, your choices, and your care.

🩺 What Happens If a Hospital Suspects Sexual Assault — Even Without Disclosure

Hospitals do not ignore signs of sexual trauma.

When a person seeks care in the emergency room with injuries that are consistent with sexual assault, even if they do not verbally disclose what happened, trained medical staff follow a very specific, documented protocol to ensure safety, legal protection, and trauma-informed care.

Here’s what actually happens:

🧾 Step-by-Step: When Sexual Assault Is Suspected in the ER

1. Medical staff stabilize the patient — treating visible injuries, including lacerations, bleeding, or trauma to sensitive areas.
2. If the injury suggests sexual assault, staff are trained to:
   • Document the injury in detailed clinical notes
   • Ask open-ended, non-leading questions (e.g., “Can you tell me what happened?”)
   • Offer the option of a SANE (Sexual Assault Nurse Examiner), if available
3. Even if the patient denies assault:
   • Staff still document injuries and any unusual patterns
   • They offer written or verbal information about forensic exams, support services, and reporting options
   • Consent is always required, but declining an exam doesn’t erase the record of the visit
4. If sutures or internal care is performed:
   • The injury, how it occurred (according to the patient or lack of explanation), and what treatment was given is automatically recorded in the hospital’s EMR (Electronic Medical Record)

🛑 Can Someone Truly Walk Out Without a Paper Trail?

No. Even if someone is scared or refuses to name what happened:

• There will be records of the injury
• There will be clinical notes on the explanation given (or lack thereof)
• The existence of sutures, medications, or trauma-specific treatment will remain part of their medical file

This is important to understand: there is always documentation — whether or not law enforcement is involved.

🧠 Why This Matters

Some people weaponize false or unverified trauma stories to gain sympathy, avoid accountability, or reframe harmful behavior. While real survivors often hesitate to speak up due to shame or fear, credible trauma leaves a trail — even if no charges are filed.

When someone claims to have been sexually assaulted, received medical care (including stitches), but provides no documentation, no dates, no hospitals, and cannot explain the aftercare or discharge — it’s okay to ask questions.

At the same time, we must hold space for the truth:
False accusations are rare — but they do happen.
Being discerning is not the same as being dismissive.

If you’re a survivor reading this:
We believe you.
This guide was written for you — to give you tools, to offer care, and to help others understand what real trauma may look like.

But part of advocacy is truth-telling — and we believe in protecting survivors from those who would exploit their stories for personal gain.

🔎 For Survivors Who Didn’t or Couldn’t Report

We also honor those who genuinely were harmed but were too afraid to report.
Still, it’s important to know:

• Medical records exist, even for silent survivors
• A person can always request their hospital records
• Honest disclosure doesn’t need to be perfect — but truth usually has details

🪷 Reporting — If and When You’re Ready🪷

This decision is yours. There is no deadline on your truth.

🛑 You Are Not Required to Report.

This guide was written for you — to give you tools, to offer care,

and to help others understand what real trauma may look like.

Not every survivor reports their assault — and that is okay.

Whether you report immediately, wait months or years, or never report at all… you are still a survivor

You still deserve care, respect, and healing.

🧠 Things to Consider Before Reporting

🩺 What Does “Trauma-Informed” Mean?

Trauma-informed therapist will:

• Believe you without needing proof
• Ask for consent before sensitive topics
• Recognize freeze, flight, or shutdown responses
• Use tools that calm the nervous system, not just talk therapy
• Honor your boundaries and right to decline questions or topics

🧭 What to Look For

You might consider:

• Experience with sexual trauma, PTSD, or complex trauma
• Methods like EMDR, Somatic Experiencing, or Internal Family Systems
• A calm, nonjudgmental presence
• Someone who accepts your insurance — or offers a sliding scale

❓ Questions to Ask in a Free Consultation

• What is your experience working with survivors of sexual assault?
• What training do you have in trauma therapy?
• What happens if I feel triggered during a session?
• Do I have to talk about the assault for therapy to work?
• Can we go slowly? What happens if I need to stop?

You deserve to feel safe. A good therapist will never rush or pressure you.

• PsychologyToday.com — Use filters like “Sexual Abuse” or “Trauma Focused”

• OpenPathCollective.org — Affordable therapy directory

• RAINN’s Therapist Locator

• Local sexual assault centers or DV shelters — Many offer therapy or referrals

🧡 Gentle Notes

You don’t have to tell your story all at once — or ever.

You are allowed to switch therapists at any time.

Therapy is not about reliving the trauma.

It’s about reclaiming power, peace, and safety.

Healing isn’t just survival. It’s reclaiming your voice.

🧠 Did You Know?

After trauma, the amygdala becomes hyperactive, the prefrontal cortex may struggle to think clearly, and the hippocampus (memory center) can misfile or fragment events. Your body is doing its best to survive. Understanding this helps heal it.

Why Am I Feeling This Way?

If your thoughts feel jumbled, your emotions feel too big (or too far away), or your body is reacting in ways you don’t understand — you are not losing it. This is how trauma shows up in the brain.

• Your brain’s alarm system (called the amygdala) can get stuck in “high alert” after something scary or painful happens. That’s why you might feel jumpy, anxious, or like danger is everywhere — even when you’re technically safe.

• Your thinking brain (the prefrontal cortex) may have trouble focusing or calming you down. It’s not your fault if you can’t make decisions or feel like you’re frozen or shut down — your brain is literally trying to protect you by slowing everything down.

• Your memory center (the hippocampus) can get overwhelmed. That’s why memories might come in flashes, feel out of order, or be hard to talk about clearly. You’re not making it up. Your brain is trying to survive, not take perfect notes.

You are not broken.

You are not crazy.

You are having a very normal response to something that was not okay.

Understanding this doesn’t fix everything — but it can help you start to feel safer in your own skin again.

🪷 Common Reactions & Aftershock Responses 🪷

What You’re Feeling is Real — Even If It Doesn’t Make Sense Yet

In the hours, days, or even months after a sexual assault, your body and brain may respond in ways that feel unfamiliar, overwhelming, or disconnected from what happened. These are called aftershock responses — your nervous system’s way of trying to protect you and process what occurred.

There is no right way to respond to trauma. Some people shut down. Others cry, pace, or feel nothing at all.

All of these are valid. They are survival responses, not personality traits.

💥 Common Emotional Reactions:

Shock or numbness — feeling like it didn’t happen, or like you’re watching it happen to someone else.

Anxiety or panic — sudden racing heart, trembling, hyper-awareness of your surroundings.

Anger or rage — often suppressed due to shame, especially in survivors taught to “stay quiet.”

Guilt or self-blame — questioning what you did, wore, drank, said. This is not your fault.

Sadness or depression — low mood, hopelessness, disconnection from things you once enjoyed.

🧠 Cognitive & Psychological Responses:

Intrusive thoughts or flashbacks — scenes replay in your head without warning.

Memory fog or blackouts — difficulty recalling exact events or the order of things.

Difficulty concentrating — your brain is in protection mode, not performance mode.

Hypervigilance — feeling unsafe, scanning for danger, easily startled.

Throughout this guide, you’ll find reflective journal prompts placed at key moments to support your healing journey. These prompts are also available as downloadable JPEG images — perfect for saving, printing, or using in your own notebook or digital journal.

📥 Want to keep them all in one place?
You can download the full set from our Journal Library here (soon to come) and build your own personalized healing workbook.

Your voice matters. Your story matters. And these pages are here to help you explore both — one prompt at a time.

Support Systems & Safe Spaces

You don’t have to heal alone — and you shouldn’t have to.

You don’t owe anyone your story. But if you choose to report

— it’s your right.You can start small:

🛑 You Are Allowed to Say:

“I’m not sure I want to file a report, but I have questions.”

“I only want to document this for now.”

“I need someone with me when I talk.”

“I’m not ready to go further, and that’s okay.

🕊️ Other Options (If You’re Not Ready for Police):

Anonymous Reporting: Some hospitals and advocacy centers allow you to report anonymously or file “Jane/John Doe” rape kits.

Third-Party Reporting: Some advocacy groups can file on your behalf or preserve evidence until you’re ready.

RAINN Reporting Support: You can call 800-656-HOPE or visit rainn.org to talk through your options without pressure.

💬 You Deserve to Know

Reporting is not the only way to reclaim power.

Telling your truth to yourself is powerful too.

Myths to Unlearn

🚫 Myth 1: “You didn’t fight back — so it wasn’t really assault.”

The Truth: Freezing is a natural trauma response. Many survivors go into shock, dissociate, or experience tonic immobility. Your body responded the way it needed to survive. Consent requires enthusiastic participation — not just the absence of resistance.

🚫 Myth 2: “It’s not rape if you were dating, married, or had sex before.”

The Truth: Consent must be given every time — regardless of relationship status or history. You have the right to say no at any point, and your boundaries deserve to be respected.

🚫 Myth 3: “Only strangers commit sexual assault.”

The Truth: Most assaults are committed by someone the survivor knows — a friend, coworker, partner, or family member. Familiarity does not excuse harm.

🚫 Myth 4: “Men can’t be raped.”

The Truth: Sexual assault can happen to anyone — regardless of gender, orientation, or identity. Male survivors are often silenced by stigma, but their pain and trauma are just as real and valid.

🚫 Myth 5: “You didn’t report it right away — so it must not be true.”

The Truth: Delayed reporting is common. Survivors may need time to process, feel safe, or find support. The trauma doesn’t expire — and neither does your right to seek help or speak your truth.

Sources: RAINN.org, NSVRC.org, CDC.gov, and peer-reviewed trauma literature. This section reflects evidence-based insights as of 2025.

🧠 Need a Trauma Therapist?

Tip: You can ask during a consultation:

“Have you worked with sexual trauma survivors before?

Do you use trauma-informed practices?”

PTSD or complex trauma

Somatic or body-centered therapy

EMDR or IFS

Sexual trauma or assault

LGBTQ+ affirming care

🛑 Immediate Danger?

If you feel unsafe or are being threatened,

call 911 or go to your nearest emergency room.